Showing posts from February, 2015
Day 58: *heavy breathing* #365DaysOfHappy #2015 #HouseOfCards #season3 #GuessIllBeBingingTonight #HappyGoals #KevinSpaceyIsBae #DontJudgeMe IG-AsiaAneka
Day 57: That's the plan #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals #2015 IG-AsiaAneka
Day 56: I miss live tweeting tf out of this show #365DaysOfHappy #2015 #HappyGoals #Catfish #WednesdaysJustGotEvenBetter IG-AsiaAneka
"My mind’s filled with loves past."

-Asia Aneka Anderson2015©
"Seeing the world through a kaleidoscope."

-Asia Aneka Anderson2015 ©

Broken Branches

I am a person who is fascinated by history. I love looking into my family history, even though I don’t get to as often as I’d like. As interesting as it is to find out where I came from this activity is bittersweet. Every black person is going to get to that point in their family tree where there’s a roadblock.
        I’ll admit I’m amazed at how far back I was able to get on my family tree. On my fathers side I’m able to go back three generations. With the fathers side of his family I’m able to reach the mid 1800s without running into a slave owner just yet. My mother’s side is different. On her fathers side I’m able to go five generations back and am able to find more information about a slave owner, George Washington Cain (my great-great-great grandfather), than the black side of my family. I’ve found that George, who lived in TN, received a slave, Cynthia, from his brother somewhere along the east coast and went on to have three children with her. When it comes to…
Day 55: this man's music brings me much joy. #365DaysOfHappiness #2015 #GeorgeHarrison #HappyBirthdayGeorge #TheBeatles #HappyGoals IG:AsiaAneka

Woe Is Me

Lost little girl with the “woe is me” mindset.
Picked on and jabbed leaving her attitude justified.
Bullies claw at the dirt around her feet.
She sunk down deep.

Lost little girl with the “woe is me” mindset.
Her sorrows and fears weighed on her heavy.
She kicked at the dirt around her feet.
Deeper and deeper she goes.

Lost little girl with the “woe is me” mindset.
She heard the whispers of hate creep past her ear.
Her inner demons dug heaps of dirt around her feet.
In a hole she stood now shoulder deep.

Lost little girl with the “woe is me” mindset.
She stared up as the bullies smiled at their work below.
Her need to climb to the surface diminished.
It was too deep and the outlook too dark.

Lost little girl with the “woe is me” mindset.
In her hand was the shovel of insecurity the bullies bestowed upon her.
This cave of negativity had become her home now.
She picked up where they left off digging herself deeper and deeper.

Lost little girl with the “woe is me” mindset was now a woma…

A Letter To My Future Self

Dear future me,
Wherever you are I hope you are well.
I did my best to keep you healthy and sound when you were here.
As I know I could’ve tried harder.
I often worry about you.
I’m unsure whether you’ll even exist.
Imagining you seems impossible.
Past me was so hopeful and full of dreams.
She lived with the vision that you’d be something amazing.
Past me made so many plans that present me was supposed to fulfill.
Present me steamrolled that vision.
I’m not sure where it all went wrong and even more unsure how to fix it.
I can’t seem to get a grip on life.
I really hope you sorted that out.
All I ever wanted was for you to be happy.
I wanted to make it easy for you to succeed.
That pressure only made it easy for me to give up.
I gave up, waiting for you to come and take the reigns.
My apologies for making your job much harder.
I hope you can forgive me for the mess I have made.
Future me I hope you become everything we wanted you to be.
We wanted you to be loved.
Loving myself proved …

On The Outside

Often overlooked.
Never worthy of your love.
Can’t understand why.

-Asia Aneka Anderson
Tumblr: AsiaWrites
Day 54: I remind myself of this to put my mind at ease. #2015 started off all wrong, but I know this year has great things in store for me and the people I care about. #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals IG:AsiaAneka
Day 53: I embrace my weird. I love my weird. #365DaysOfHappy #2015 #HappyGoals #GrahamMoore #StayWeird #Oscars2015 IG:AsiaAneka


Be free. Keep running.
Never let failure stop you.
Be happy. Be you.

-Asia Aneka Anderson
Tumblr: AsiaWrites


Daydreaming of us.
A whirlwind of happiness.
A lifetime with you.

-Asia Aneka Anderson
Tumblr: AsiaWrites
Day 52: Just the intro to this song puts a smile on my face #365DaysOfHappy #2015 #HappyGoals #TheBeatles #AllYouNeedIsLove #FabFour #JohnLennon #PaulMcCartney #GeorgeHarrison #RingoStarr IG-AsiaAneka
Day 51: I don't think I could survive without music. #365DaysOfHappy #2015 #HappyGoals #music IG-AsiaAneka

Dark And Light

Living in the dark.
Shadows all surrounding me.
Seeking hope and light.

-Asia Aneka Anderson
Tumblr: AsiaWrites
"I wish the future was now."

-Asia Aneka Anderson 2015©

Day 50: Finding new routines that #workout my mind, body, and soul #365daysofhappy #2015 #happygoals #fitness #exercise #WeightLossJourney IG-AsiaAneka
Day 49: When I see things like this. I hope something is done about it too. It's about time people start getting held accountable. ‪#‎365daysofhappy‬‪#‎Ferguson‬‪#‎CNN‬‪#‎BlackLivesMatter‬ #2015 ‪#‎happygoals‬ IG-AsiaAneka
Day 48: I love dog shows, always have and always will. I usually just squeal "it's so cute!" the entire time. ‪#‎365DaysOfHappy‬ #2015 ‪#‎HappyGoals‬‪#‎Westminster‬‪#‎doggies‬! IG-AsiaAneka

"Only God Can Judge" And Other Rules Supposed Christians Break

My entire life I’ve grown up hearing a lot of negative things out of the mouths of people I care about. “Why is that girl wearing that?”, “What is going on with your hair?”, and “Damn, they’re fat.” are things I heard them say about people all the time. As a child I saw it as normal, although in the back of my mind I knew something was off about it.
           I come from an extended family who consider themselves Christians and wondered why they were the people I heard most negative things from. I often heard them say hurtful things about people and laugh as though their words had no negative impact.  I grew up feeling inadequate because of it, I’ll admit. I never felt food enough. As a kid I was very scrawny so the fat comments didn’t come until much later, but back then I was (still am) different. When I was a kid I was just devoted to being me. I didn’t want to conform to whatever normal was and most certainly didn’t want to follow the bumpy road of sticking to a st…
"You can almost feel time stop."

-Asia Aneka Anderson 2015 ©

"We howled at the moon together."

- Asia Aneka Anderson 2015©

"Traveling a road that never ends."

-Asia Aneka Anderson 2015 ©

"I wish our love could last."

 -Asia Aneka Anderson 2015©
Day 47: Keeping my blog updated and speaking my mind #365daysofhappy #HappyGoals #2015 #InsideMyCreativeMind #writing #Stories #poems #poetry #PoetsOfInstagram #StorytellersOfInstagram IG-AsiaAneka
Day 46: The best sketch ever #SNL40 #365daysofhappy #2015 #happygoals #TheBarryGibbTalkShow #JustinTimberlake #JimmyFallon IG-AsiaAneka
Day 45: Bullshit holidays, munching on Chinese food, and getting schooled by fortune cookies #365DaysOfHappy #2015 #HappyGoals IG-AsiaAneka
Day 44: It's a good day when my #twistout and eyeliner turn out okay. #365DaysOfHappy #2015 #HappyGoals #naturalista #naturalhair #teamnatural #redlips

How Do I Cope?

I don’t know how to handle the death of someone that you weren’t really that close to. Sometimes I feel as though I don’t have the right to be sad about it. My aunt and I were never super close. From the time I was a child I always felt that her and my grandmother favored my older and younger cousin more. It made me understand the “middle child syndrome” all too well even though I’m an only child. I was/am often the one that was left out or forgotten about, but that’s all I’ve ever known. Even with all that said she never got a chance to have children and we were the next best thing. I will admit that being treated as the black sheep I harbored some resentment towards this side of my family. I didn’t feel the need to care about a group of people who I thought cared very little about me.
       During the last few months of her life we still never became too close, but I felt like I got a chance to understand her more than I had my entire life. I was shocked to find tha…
"Days are growing shorter and shorter."

-Asia Aneka Anderson 2015 ©

Day 43: shampoo day is the best day #365DaysOfHappy #2015 #HappyGoals #ActuallyItsCoWashDay IG-AsiaAneka
"All hate erased from my heart."

-Asia Aneka Anderson2015 ©
Day 42: listening to a song that used make me feel incredibly sad when I was younger and not feel hopeless. #365DaysofHappy #2015 #HappyGoals #REM #EverybodyHurts IG-AsiaAneka
"Keep the secrets of my heart."

-Asia Aneka Anderson 2015©
"I will shine among the stars."

-Asia Aneka Anderson2015©
"There is no future without you."

-Asia Aneka Anderson2015©
Day 41: #Pink. There. I admitted I love pink. #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals #selfie #PinkLady #2015 IG-AsiaAneka
Day 40: I'm just going to leave this right here #365DaysOfHappy #MCM #ChildishGambino #DonaldGlover #DG #CG #DamnHeFine #HappyGoals #2015 #GodIsGood #PraiseTheLordt IG-AsiaAneka
In the following days maybe weeks I’m going to do a little bit of journaling. I’ve got some poems I was working on, but I’m going to set them aside for now because there’s other things eating away at me. Every since my aunt passed away a few weeks ago I’ve been feeling some type of way. I hope I find the energy to type and share all what I want to get out because lately all I want to do is sleep. So my apologies if it all seems redundant and annoying. I could just sit down and make one big post out of it, but I feel like if I did that a lot of what I want to say will be forgotten. I’m not sure how many posts there will be but they will most likely mirror each other while being different at the same time. I guess I feel like I should apologize beforehand because for the few who do read my work I don’t want to annoy them with what I feel is whining. Anyways, I just want to reflect on my life, how I was brought up, and how it effects me today so that maybe I can see my mist…
Day 39: YAAAASSSSS! ‪#‎TheWalkingDead‬‪#‎TWD‬‪#‎ImReady‬‪#‎BethTho‬‪#‎DoNotDisturb‬‪#‎365DaysOfHappy‬ #2015 ‪#‎HappyGoals‬ IG-AsiaAneka 

Maybe You've Been Brainwashed Too

If you’re a black man or woman and you use the words “light skinned” or “dark skinned” in a manner as if the two should be in competition with one another, I have no time for your twisted brainwashed bullshit.
        If you’re a black man or woman and you use the term “redbones” as a compliment and think that the lighter the skin an individual has makes them superior over everyone else, I have no time for your twisted brainwashed bullshit.
        If you are a black man or black woman and you think a black woman should only be praised if she has a big ass and/or long hair (or weave) and nothing else, I have no time for your twisted brainwashed bullshit.
        If you are a black man or black woman and you think that the only thing a black man can do to truly succeed is to rap or play sports, I have no time for your twisted brainwashed bullshit.
        If you’re a black man or black woman and you use the words “ugly”, “nappy”, or “African” to describe someone wh…
Day 38: movie nights with the fam. #365DaysOfHappy#HappyGoals#Philomena #2015 IG-AsiaAneka
Day 37: seeing this #weightloss makes me incredibly happy. I'll be at my goal in no time. #365daysofhappy #HappyGoals #healthy IG-AsiaAneka
Day 36: My cousin got me hooked on these things. They're soooo good. #ImObsessed #365daysofhappy #happygoals #healthy #2015 IG-AsiaAneka 

Tragic Crush Tales #5

Crush S I really didn’t give a chance. We met through a popular dating site back in 2011. I was immediately attracted to him. He was a nice looking guy, funny, and extremely intelligent. In my profile I left a hint on how to find me on Facebook (as I do with all of my dating profiles because I’m not paying for that shit) and he quickly found me. We were able to converse there a bit more in order to get to know each other.
         With crush S we never really got a chance to meet. When we first started talking I was on a leave from work because I had fractured my foot. I was able to get around, but there was no way I was going to meet up with a great guy on a date and have a big boot on my foot. In the beginning the timing was just off for us. I was working for a company that left me zero time for a social life, now I had this fractured foot, and because of this stressful job I had gained a considerable amount of weight which left me feeling not so great about m…
Day 35: A pretty awesome playlist to ‪#‎workout‬ to is key ‪#‎365DaysOfHappy‬ #2015 ‪#‎HappyGoals‬‪#‎healthy‬ IG-AsiaAneka
Day 34: ‪#‎MyBigFatFabLife‬ makes me so happy. Whitney has the most positive attitude I've ever seen in life and I hope to have that attitude one day ‪#‎365DaysOfHappy‬‪#‎HappyGoals‬ #2015 IG-AsiaAneka

Seriously, Spotify

So I was enjoying a little music on Spotify while I was working out today and I heard an ad that completely ruined my mood. It was an ad that suggested to celebrate black history month by listening to hip hop artists like O.T. Genasis and Flo Rida. There was a third artist that was mentioned, but I was so shocked by the first two I didn’t pay attention to who it was.

         First off O.T. Genasis is known for a song about how he loves and sells cocaine.
and Flo Rida is just a trash artist and I’m confused as to why he still has a career, but I digress.

        There are so many hip hop artists that could’ve been used in that ad. Spotify could’ve used the opportunity to promote up and coming hip hop artists as well as well known artists that actually represent the positivity or speak on social issues within the black community (Kendrick Lamar, Kid Cudi, Childish Gambino, Schoolboy Q, The Roots). After all that’s what black history month is about. It’s about the peo…
Day 33: #BrainGames is my favourite. It makes me feel smart... oh and there's gorgeous #JasonSilva 😍 #365DaysOfHappy #2015 #HappyGoals IG-AsiaAneka
Day 32: #TheWalkingDead marathons are everything #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals #2015 #TWD #AMC #DarylDixon IG-AsiaAneka
Day 31: Austin & Ally is my shit ‪#‎DontJudgeMe‬‪#‎365DaysOfHappy‬ #2015 ‪#‎HappyGoals‬‪#‎Disney‬‪#‎RossIsBae‬‪#‎AustinAndAlly‬ IG-AsiaAneka
Day 30: a great collection of music to get my creativity flowing. ‪#‎365DaysOfHappy‬ #2015 ‪#‎HappyGoals‬‪#‎Spotify‬ IG-AsiaAneka