My love life is, for sure, a tragedy. It’s a combination of self
sabotage, picking horribly, and bad timing. It’s a complete clusterfuck,
and to be honest my love life has been nothing but a clusterfuck from
my very first date. I thought it was something that would improve with
time and age, and in a way it has, but definitely not too much.
For the past six years I have been single. Yes. Six. Fucking. Years.
Shoot me. I’m not even sure what happened and how time escaped me the
way that it did. Somehow six years went by where I had not been intimate
with a man. That seems absolutely insane. That’s something you hear and
expect the end of the story to wind up with the girl becoming a nun.
That is definitely not my story. My story involves hectic work
schedules, over stressed, financial ruin, major setbacks, major bouts of
depression, deaths in the family, more depression, blah, blah, blah. It
was never ending. I barely had time for human contact because
The very thought of you had me playing Disney themed romance scenes in my mind. Happily ever afters. Turned into nothing but disasters. You shed your Prince Charming role. With it my trust you stole. First had me feeling like a princess. Now the shit you put me through is senseless. Exaggerated feelings that never existed. If only your actions could've been consistent. Lust mistaken for love. A false partnership I never dreamed of. Lies upon lies. From that I grew to despise. Once upon a time you hand me in the palm of you hand. Later to reveal you lack what it takes to be a man. Sadly in my heart you still remain. But I know that it's all in vain. There are no fairy tales with you in the end. I know now that it was all pretend. My prince charming does exist. He'll be genuine and your lies will not be missed. I won't let you shake my belief in happily ever after. One day I'll find that man that shows me I truly matter.
Why don’t you bleed for this?
Why won’t you die for it?
If it is a passion where is yours?
If it is undeniable why do you deny it?
Where is your thirst?
Where is your determination?
Where is the want?
You want this.
You work past the fear.
You work through the “no’s”
Even the ones you tell yourself.
Only then will you find your passion.
There you will bleed, suffer, and die for this.
How much do you want it?
No one said it would be easy.
But the hardest things are always the most worthy.
Do you sill want to give up now?
You got a taste of it.
There’s no way you can turn back now.
Give passion to your passion.
Go after what makes you happy.
After all, life is short.
Remove yourself from blocking yourself.
Only you are in the way.
Only you tell you that you don’t have what it takes.
The lies you tell yourself.
In fact, you can conquer all.
Continue the battle until you have won.
There is no other choice but victory.
You deserve every accomplishment you achieve.
If you bleed, …