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Goals: To kiss my crush at least once.
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Photo: Asia Aneka Anderson (The Art Institute of Chicago)
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"Prisoner Of My Mind" Asia Aneka Anderson 2015(c) Photo: Asia Aneka Anderson IG:Asia_Aneka_Writes
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Day 151: #HarryPotter effing weekend! It's like ABC Family knows when it's raining. #HarryPotterAndTheHalfBloodPrince #HarryPotterForever #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 150: Ready for the "Secret Life of #MarilynMonroe" #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 149: 29 drafts saved on my blog and that's not even including the stories swimming around in my brain. It may seem overwhelming, but this number means that creativity is brewing. #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals #AsiaWrites #InsideMyCreativeMind #amwriting #Tumblr IG-AsiaAneka
Goals: To visit NYC and see where John Lennon lived on my birthday this October.

I Wear A Smile

I wear a smile in my dreams.
I go the places I long to go.
I become all the things I want to be.
A smile appears on my face.
I smile at the journey only my dreams can take me.
Happy as long as my eyes are closed.
I conquer all fears.
I travel all roads.
Grinning at the thought that I can succeed.
When my eyes open the smile remains.
Aware of what’s possible.
Knowing what lies ahead.
A smile that travels from dreams to my face.
Proof that dreams do come to life.

-Asia Aneka Anderson, I Wear A Smile 2015©

My Body, My Soul

Let me take care of you.
I can treat you better.
I promise.
I long to make you feel loved.
God knows you need it.
Let me shower you with the finer things.
I’ll give you all you deserve.
I can keep you centered.
Showing you that all you strive for is possible.
I’ve caused you many tears.
Tears I wish to erase.
Give me time to make it up to you.
I will make you my #1.
I promise to never abandon you again.
All past mistakes forgotten.
Let me help you take on the world.
I can carry your voice for you.
I’ll raise you up to the top.
I will catch you when the climb gets shaky.
Reminding you that I have your back.
I promise to love you always.
I promise to always take care of you.
You are my body.
You are my soul.
I’ll never have another like you.

-Asia Aneka Anderson, My Body, My Soul 2015©

Tragic Best Friend Tales #2

Where do I even start with my friend S? Although our friendship took a quick nosedive it seemed almost like I was watching a car crash in slow motion before unexpectedly exploding.
        I met S in high school. She was a grade lower than me, but her and I became very fast friends. She was really outspoken, funny, and remained herself always. Most people in high school are always trying to keep up a reputation, but S gave zero fucks and I liked that about her. She was definitely one of those kids you see in the high school movies who was part of the stoner crowd, but only more rambunctious and in your face. We were somewhat complete opposites. She didn’t care what people thought, said whatever was on her mind, loud, and dared to be different. I was more reserved, cared slightly about what people thought, and was very very quiet around people who weren’t in my social circle.
        I loved S almost like a sister and like anyone like that you sort of overlook th…
Goals: To call Chicago home once again.
Goals: To be more forgiving.
Goals: To not let people get the best of me.
Goals: To finish school at a school that has an amazing journalism and photography department.

Tragic Crush Tales #7

Crush T was one of those crushes that it just hits you all of a sudden. We worked together and the one major thing we had in common is that we HATED our job. Hated is actually putting it nicely, but it was something we could definitely bond over. Since we worked in a call center we barely had time to talk to each other, but when we did it was fun. Slowly I started to find myself being attracted to him. What I didn’t know is that he felt the exact same.
      We had only known each other for a few months before he eventually got fired. Even during that time we never told each other how we felt. It wasn’t until I had quit that job and moved back home a few states away. When I moved we were really bad at keeping contact with each other. One day out of the blue he told me how he felt about me. I was shocked and at the same time I wasn’t. I sort of thought that he felt the same, but I didn’t want to assume and end up getting rejected if I was wrong. When he texted me that he …
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Day 148: Just back from an interview. Fingers crossed. Not even for the money, but just to get out and live. #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals IG-AsiaAneka
Goals: To run a successful blog
Goals: To be more open.

I Have A Bone To Pick With Pinterest

Yesterday I posted about receiving a threat from Pinterest that my account was suspended and will possibly be terminated because I pinned a photo of Benedict Cumberbatch that I had seen on Tumblr and the photographer, Armando Gallo, reported it. I had never heard of this photographer before yesterday nor was his name or credit attached to said photo of Ben or else it would’ve still been there. Today I receive another email stating another pin of Ben had been removed, but that this was not a complaint directed at me, but at another user whom I had repinned this from. The link from the second photo is very similar to the first one so I assume both pics came from the same master post on Tumblr.
        I’m not pissed or disappointed because of photos of Benedict being removed from my account. My beef is how it was handled. As a writer I would be agitated if my poems were passed along the internet and someone was legit trying to take credit for it. On all of my work …
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If I get shit like this from Pinterest one more time

I had no idea that I had to do extensive research on where pics come from that I pin or repin. The fuck? Obviously it was from Tumblr and I’m not the only person who’s pinned, repinned, blogged, or reblogged. Just remove it, tell me what it is so that I don’t make that mistake again, and keep it moving. Don’t be such a diva about it.
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Day 147: A few weeks ago I saw the movie "Yes Man" for the first time. An old cheesy #JimCarrey flick, but it's probably one of the most motivating movies I've seen in a while. I need to say yes more and do more. I'm not 100% committed to this lifestyle so if you ask me to do some bullshit it's still a no lol. #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 146: I've been smiling a lot lately. Not for any particular reason and not for the obvious. It's because deep down I have a feeling that things are going to make a drastic change for the better. I don't know what and I don't know when, but I'm gonna trust my gut on this one 😊 #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals IG-AsiaAneka

Don't Put Me In Your Box

Don’t put me in your box.
I am too big to contain.
Your rules will not stick.
Your rules I will break.
I cannot fit into your box.
I will not color inside your lines.
On a fast track to live hard.
Die young.
You can’t put me in your box.
Your walls I’ll break down.
Your barriers I’ll demolish.
I will not be put in a box.
Too strong to hold down.
Too anxious to sit still.
You can’t tame me.
Your box will never hold me.

-Asia Aneka Anderson, Don’t Put Me In Your Box 2015©
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Day 145: This squat challenge seems less likely to kill me than the last one I started. Just add 5 a day #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals #weightloss #exercise #workout IG-AsiaAneka

Tragic Work Tales #1

My employment with C was a roller coaster of fuckery from start to finish. There will be many posts in this series from this job alone. This place caused me so much stress, depression, and anxiety. This tale is not about my first horrible run in with this company, but it is the one that left me with the biggest “what the fuck?” moment.
        In December of 2010 I was only at this job for about six months. I had only been out of training for a bit and had received vacation and other paid off days not too long before that. It was getting close to Christmastime and I was hopeful that I could be approved for a few days off so that I could go home for the holidays since I hadn’t been home for over a year. I logged my time into the system and kept getting error messages before being added to a wait list. As someone who had never had a job with these types of benefits and was used to just taking days off with no pay I didn’t 100% understand what it meant. My superviso…
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"I Fly" Asia Aneka Anderson 2015© Photo: Asia Aneka Anderson (my backyard/ Dayton, Ohio) IG:Asia_Aneka_Writes
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Day 144: Happy #PanVisibilityDay #Pride #Pansexual #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals
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Day 143: I really want my hair this color. I will one day. #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals #LondonLilac #VidalSassoon #PurpleHairDontCare IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 142: I have got to be more like this with myself. #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 141: #Louie is bae. #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 140: my goal is to get a VW bus like this and travel the country. Just letting the road take me wherever I'll be. #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #365DsysOfHippy #VW #HappyGoals IG-AsiaAneka
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"I Want To Go Home" Asia Aneka Anderson 2015(c)
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I Fly

Every time I try to spread my wings the ends instantaneously get clipped.
Shorter and shorter they seem.
Still I try.
Try to fly.
Fly away to something better.
Fly away to something new.
I try to soar above the chaos.
The wind blows me further back than before.
Wings clipped.
Future far.
Still I try to spread my wings.
Still I long to soar.
Nothing can keep me from flying high.
Nothing will contain the adventure in my heart.
I will soar.
I will, one day, fly away.

-Asia Aneka Anderson, I Fly 2015©

I Once Told You I Loved You

I thought about you all the time.
Thoughts of you made my heart swell.
I knew you were meant for me.
Feelings that I kept inside.
Scared it was only me.
A feeling so strong I could no longer keep secret.
I once told you I loved you.
Sure there would be a display of fireworks.
It took you by surprise.
You gave silence that could shake the dead.
An eternity would pass before you would answer.
An answer I didn’t want to hear.
Words worse than rejection.
A cool calm “I didn’t know you felt that way.”
Followed by nothing more.
Casual conversations continue.
My heart still confused.
Refusing to be strung along.
I say goodbye.
I once told you I loved you.
And always that will be true.

-Asia Aneka Anderson, I Once Told You I Loved You 2015©
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“In With The Spring” Asia Aneka Anderson 2015©
Photo: Asia Aneka Anderson (Millennium Park/Chicago)
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Day 139: "Media is the most powerful entity on earth. They have the power to make the innocent guilty & the guilty innocent. That's power." -#MalcolmX. Words still true for today. #HappyBirthdayMalcolm #2015 #365DaysOfHappy#HappyGoals IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 138: Justin at #Sephora made me look hot today. #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals IG-AsiaAneka

The World Through My Eyes

I saw the world through your eyes.
The view so skewed.
Outlook so foggy and bleak.
I stepped outside you.
Hoping the view would be clear.
A part of you stayed with me.
The storm still clouding my vision.
I asked you to see the world through my eyes.
Hope and bright future just over the horizon.
You stayed in your bubble of doom.
Unwilling to see things clearly.
Your mind weighed down with unnecessary worry. 
I insisted that through my eyes the world had blue skies. 
You said “Even the bluest skies turn grey.” 
I tried to see the world through your eyes.
So bitter and cold. 
A world that refused to turn and let the sun rise. 
As my sun rises yours is always set. 
No way to see forward in the pitch black ahead. 
I can only see the world in my eyes. 
A few stormy days beat a lifetime of rain.

-Asia Aneka Anderson, The World Through My Eyes 2015©

Be Who You Want To Be

I had yet another of many discussions with my mom about body image. Since my aunt passed in January we’ve been spending a lot of time with my grandma. One thing my grandma wants to do at least once a month is to go to church. My mom freaks out about this because 1. her and I are not church going folk and 2. she’s always worried about how her body will look if she wears a dress. She complains because she doesn’t like the idea of dressing up. I try to tell her that just because she assumes other people may be in “church attire” doesn’t mean she has to do the same. Church shouldn’t be about fashion, but somehow that’s what it’s become. I don’t think God will mind if you show up in jeans and a t-shirt or a nice blouse and some slacks.
        When going shopping with her I feel like a life coach. She’ll pull out a cute dress only to put it back because it’s sleeveless or has spaghetti straps all because she thinks her arms are flabby. “And?” has become my signature r…
I’ll admit that I did have a little fun with the tragic boyfriend, crush, and best friend tales. I’m starting to run out of experiences to talk about as far as those topics are concerned. It’s also possible that I have more stories, but just a lot of people and/or encounters blocked from my memory lol. I think I want to add to this series though. What better topic to talk about than tragic work tales. I’ve had some pretty shitty or dull boyfriends, but they don’t compare to some of the horrible work experiences I’ve had. I’ll get started on these soon. Enjoy!
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Day 137: It's International Day Against Homophobia and Transphobia. If you're about that homophobic life I don't need you in mine. #Support #Ally #LGBT #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 136: there’s only one thing I love more than solitude and that’s silence. No nonsense small talk. No being bothered with chatter and noise. All I need are my thoughts and the soundtrack to go with it. #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals #TeamNatural #Naturalista #NaturalHair
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Day 135: Story of my life but I still try to find fun in this frustrating process #2015 #HappyGoals #365DaysOfHappy #OOP #repost IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 134: Whoever invented cookies n' cream popcorn is the real MVP. #2015 #HappyGoals #365DaysOfHappy IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 133: Still making moves. Made an IG account (@Asia_aneka_writes) for my blog (Asiaanekawrites.Blogspot.com) and FB page (Facebook.com/Asiaanekawrites). I'll be combining some of my poems and stories with my photography as well as updates 😊 #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals #amwriting #InsideMyCreativeMyMind IG-AsiaAneka

Prisoner Of My Mind

My Body is still.
But my mind is still racing.
Trapped in my own thoughts.

-Asia Aneka Anderson Prisoner Of My Mind 2015©

Review: Curl la la

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As promised, over a month ago (I know. I know.), here is my review for Curl la la.         With Curl la la I only use this on my shampoo or cowash days. I use this while doing the L.O.C. (liquid, oil, cream) method when twisting my hair after I've shampooed or cowashed. It's pretty light and very creamy. I've used different products that don't feel as creamy and end up drying my hair out a bit, but not with this. Curl la la has a light floral smell to it. I'd say it smells almost like lavender, but definitely not overbearing.
         When twisting my hair I'll use plain water to wet my hair, then I'll put a small amount of whatever oil I'm using at the time (which is canola oil for right now) and then add the Curl la la. This product does give my hair shine and holds my twists without making my hair feel hard. For instance, when I first transitioned I used all of Pantene's natural products and their custard made my hair hard, dry, and very brittl…
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Day 132: It's a jungle out there. #ILoveTheseLeggings #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 131: Finally it's warm enough for my #Beatles tank. #TheBeatles #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals #naturalista #naturalhair #teamnatural #PhotoGrid IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 130: My gift to my mama came earlier than expected. Now it's time for me to cook AGAIN (I cooked earlier today for my grandma). Happy Mothers Day! #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 129: A nice strawberry cheesecake shake on a summer like day. #Sonic #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 128: I didn't choose the #blipster life. The blipster life chose me. #blackhipster #hipsterlife #2015 #HappyGoals #365DaysOfHappy #naturalista #naturalhair #teamnatural IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 127: I loved this one. It was so cute and looked natural #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals #selfie IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 126: I'm on day 4. I guess if i can survive 75 I can do 60 with no problem. #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals #SquatChallenge #WeightLoss IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 125: Being #Disney princesses. #Ariel #TheLittleMermaid #ILoveIt #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals IG-AsiaAneka

I Want To Go Home

You are my second home.
I was so alive with you.
A freedom I’d never tasted before.
I learned so much.
My mind wide open.
Lessons I’ll keep forever.
I sought acceptance and fell into your arms.
A love affair I took for granted.
You taught me how to be me.
I never knew myself before you.
You showed me how to live.
I was afraid.
You found a way to make me come to life.
Then it ended.
You were ripped from me.
Chewed up and spit out into an abyss.
My soul is empty.
I no longer feel free.
My freedom lies with you.
My happiness spilled upon your streets.
My joy tied to your skies.
A part of me I will never get back.
I imagine a piece of me still there.
Her heart full and joyful.
She lives the life I once lived.
She lives the life I was scared to.
I hope to merge with her again.
She’ll tell stories of the life I missed.
Her adventures I’ll envy.
But with me the journey will continue.
Your city streets will embrace me again.
My old friend.
My second home.
The only home I want to be.

-Asia Anek…

In With The Spring

So long to April showers.
Arise do the May flowers.
In a field we’ll watch the sun.
Thankful the new season has begun.
Feel the breeze lightly touch my skin.
As if life can begin again.
Picking flowers that come full bloom.
Not wanting winter to come too soon.
You breathe fresh air into your lungs.
Happy just to stay with the sun.

-Asia Aneka Anderson, In With The Spring 2015©
“My heart kept beating but I died a little inside.”

-Asia Aneka Anderson, 2015©
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Day 124: Extreme peanut butter. That is all. #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 123: Grumpy is my spirit animal. #GoAway #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals #SeriouslyGoAway IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 122: I did it! I finally made a FB page for my work. I'm not going to be that annoying person to send you a billion notifications. Like it if you want and I hope you'll want to: AsiaAnekaWrites. Go follow my actual blog AsiaAnekaWrites.blogspot.com. Also if you have a blog on Tumblr I'm there too at asiawrites. For those of you who read and give me feedback, thank you so much. I really appreciate it. #2015 #365daysofhappy #happygoals #instapoet #PoetsOfInstagram #amwriting #writing #insidemycreativemind IG-AsiaAneka
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Day 121: AVENGERS ASSEMBLE!! I probably won't be able to see the movie anytime soon, but it's still #Avengers day. #TheAvengers #AgeOfUltron #Marvel #2015 #365DaysOfHappy #HappyGoals #selfie #naturalista IG-AsiaAneka