What I Don't Deserve

I don’t deserve to be alone.
All the love in the world.
So much care stored inside.
Bursting to share with the man of my dreams.
Alas, I am alone.
In ways I always have been.
Somedays seems I always will be.
I don’t deserve this feeling.
What’s wrong with my love?
Why do many reject it?
My destiny so bleak.
I don’t deserve this loneliness.
Wasted time.
Hopes up.
Left to feel broken inside.
No explanations.
Just memories left behind.
An absence of reciprocated feeling.
I’m here.
All alone.
Left to sort through this feeling.
A feeling I don’t deserve.

-Asia Aneka Anderson, What I Don’t Deserve 2016©